Taryn is Go

Right now, I’m currently in a Starbucks in Eugene OR  feeling excited, terrified, and cautiously optimistic. Today marks THE first day of a three-month hiatus from “everything but Taryn”. I will be solely focusing on my creative endeavors, growing as a human, and just enjoying some time doing new stuff with my crazy mutt, Abbey.

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I’ll admit, I am terrified because I am literally without excuse in terms of producing and being consistent. Accountability and I have been in a complicated relationship for some time now. I suppose I need to rekindle it. That and the idea of not pitching/working is horrifying too. As a self-employed person, I’m never not working, pitching, prospecting, etc. It’s a constant hustle. I’m grateful that I can afford to take this sabbatical, but my “hustle or die” radar is out of control.

 

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Bottom line, I know this fear/hesitancy is exactly why I must do this. At the end of the day, I can always find work. I can always re-enter the rat race. So I will calm my nerves (by drinking a triple shot espresso, counterproductive, I know) and will enter my hyperbolic time chamber to hone my artistic endeavors. Hopefully, I’ll come back out in Vegeta form.

 

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Shout out to all of the Dragon Ball Z fans that read my blog

I will be finally writing about the places I’ve visited in the last three months. Also, my first podcast is slated to air this coming Monday! I’ll be sure to leave a link here. If I can leave a piece of advice to my fellow creatives out there, lean into your fears. It’s by far the best thing I’ve done for myself. Happy Thursday!

Take a Break If You Need One

I’ll admit it, when I get into something new, I tend to obsess, be it work, reading, or Starbucks ;-). So on my freelance journey, nothing really has changed. I think I’m so desperate to prove to myself that I can do this, I often take on a bunch of projects all at once, and will work furiously to make sure they are completed as quickly as I’ve accepted them. The problem lies in the fact that I often neglect myself whenever I’m engaged in my obsessive endeavors.

Today for example, about 30 minutes ago, I was lightheaded and dizzy. At first I thought it was an onset of an anxiety attack. Upon further speculation, I realized that I hadn’t eaten since 8am this morning. It was about 1:45 pm when I had realized this. After scarfing down a Cara Cara orange (If you’ve never had one, I highly recommend them as they are delicious) I feel a million times better.

I also came to the realization that I need to take a break from working and get away from my computer screen for a bit. With that being said, I’m going to go crochet for awhile. I’m actually pretty good at making beanies, and I’ve found a super adorable pattern on Ravelry. I’ll be sure to do a post on that a little later. I suppose the takeaway is, if you’re feeling overwhelmed, take a breather, and just unplug. When you’re up to it, just go back to the task at hand. Your brain and nerves will thank you. 🙂

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