An Open Letter to My Neighbor

Dear Neighbor,

Hi! We kind of know each other. We both have dogs and you seem like a cool lady. Your miniature poodle is one of the sweetest and friendliest dogs around. Remember that time he jumped into my car? I thought it was hysterical. I figure you have to be a pretty decent human being to have such a sweet pup. Plus, occasionally we’ve had random, but pleasant conversations. Continue reading “An Open Letter to My Neighbor”

Stop Thinking, Start Doing

“What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

That quote is on a magnet that I put on my fridge about a year ago. When I bought it, my thought was I’d see it everyday when I pulled out my creamer for my coffee then magically become motivated to test my limits. The reality is, that most times I don’t even look at that magnet, nor do I venture out into unknown territory often. I ran into my neighbor again this morning as I was finishing my walk with Abbey. Honestly every time I see her I really do believe that sometimes things do happen for a reason. This morning was no different.

Last week, I had been struggling to progress with my freelance writing. I’ve been meaning to update my LinkedIn profile and put of samples of my work. The actual task of updating my profile is quite simple. You just have to update your career and upload some documents and Presto! You’re in business. If it’s so easy to do that, you’re probably wondering why on earth have I not done so? The simple answer is that, I’m scared to put my stuff out there. Once I hit that submit button, my hopes, fears, aspirations, are available to the world to do with whatever they choose. That type of vulnerability is terrifying to me. Granted, I realized that one of my key points in my post 2 weeks ago. I can’t very well encourage you all to be vulnerable if I’m not willing to do so myself, now can I?

Talking it out with my neighbor made me realize how much I hold myself back. My mind was working in “negative thought” overdrive. By holding onto negative thoughts and promoting self-doubt. I’ve talked myself out of doing simple tasks for fear of being judged. When I got home, I took a good look in the mirror and I’m resolving to make a change. I need to tear down the walls that I’ve built up and just get on with it. I am challenging myself to get out of my head and start living presently. And since it’s the beginning of the month, the timing couldn’t be better.

June is the month where I break out and really challenge myself both personally and professionally. I will update my LinkedIn profile and get over the fear of judgement. After all, in order to succeed, you have to start. In order to keep myself accountable, I’ll check in with my progress here and give an honest update with how it’s all going. My hope is that you’ll join me and stretch your minds to conquer whatever holds you back this month. Here’s to a growth-filled June. 🙂

vulnerability power boat

Caught With My Pants Down… Pt. 2

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, my favorite pastime is just chilling in the morning in my boyshorts doing whatever. Now that I’m enjoying my freedom this ritual has been extended into the afternoon as well. Since moving back in with my sister’s family, I’ve had to hide my indecency as to not scare my darling niece and nephew. But now, the afternoon’s are mine and the no pants rule is back in full effect. The only person subjected to this torture is my fur-child Abbey, but since she knows I control the unlimited supply of Dentastix she so loves and has grown accustomed too, she has not voiced her complaints.

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My pup not really caring whether I am or am not wearing pants

The one difference I had not counted on from moving from an apartment where I was on the highest floor to a two story home on a cul-de-sac were the fact that neighbors do exist. I should also mention that the house has a bajillion windows, so of course I opened all of them for the natural light. Failing to remember that neighbors are a real thing, I was casually walking through the living when I managed to lock eyes with my neighbor. It appeared that she was checking her fuse box and in some strange twist of fate was looking through the window at me in my t-shirt and boyshorts glory. Now, I’m not sure if she could see my lower half (nor do I really care at this point), so I did the neighborly thing and waved.

Now before you get any ideas, no, I am not some strange exhibitionist trying to scare everyone out of the neighborhood, I just like to be comfortable. Quite frankly after narrowly escaping the horrors of corporate slavery, I really couldn’t care less if she saw me or not. But, for the sake of being a team player, maybe I’ll leave the blinds closed next time… 😉

indecent exposure

Tee Hee